The Bog

I was working on this Unukalhai (FFXIV) fic a while back, but I ran out of steam for a variety of reasons. One was that the glimpses of the Thirteenth prior to becoming the Void that we've gotten in the game are like, JUST different enough from what I had in the story that I don't think it works anymore but not different enough to spark a new direction. The other was...I just could not for the life of me nail down Elidibus. Unukalhai obviously has mixed feelings about him and I could not figure out the right...balance? Something?

This was the only scene I actually liked upon poking at it again but I genuinely have no idea if it makes sense out of context as its own vignette. Elidibus retrieves Unukalhai from some kind of voidsent torture dungeon shortly after the Flood of Darkness; Unukalhai is unconscious for a while and Elidibus leaves him in that structure on the moon to recover; when he wakes up he's obviously fucking terrified. I think there was supposed to be a scene where he tries to flee and ends up getting caught by Emet-Selch and handed back to Elidibus that I never wrote, because obviously I wanted to get to the part where Unukalhai tries to graphically murder Elidibus.

( The Part Where Unukalhai Tries to Graphically Murder Elidibus (warning: graphic) )

Given the miniscule level of scrutiny this account gets/will get in the forseeable future I don't think I'll be posting much that's access locked, and also I want this to be mostly fandom/creative thoughts and I just wanna post about stuff without worrying about who's seeing what.

I do write/read/etc a lot of what one might consider "extreme" content (noncon, guro, shota, incest, monsterfucking, pretty envelope-pushing horror) but if I'm talking about that in any detail I'll put it under a cut. This isn't remotely the only thing I make or post about but, I guess I don't want people to be surprised if it comes up, or if you click on my AO3 profile and the tags are a total disaster area.

I used to run a guro fanwork fest and a guro discussion comm, both of which I ghosted pretty severely half a decade ago but the discussion comm apparently gets posts occasionally, so I might transfer it over to this account and keep hold of it/try to generate discussion there idk. How does this shit work.

I think the thing that I would most likely to lock would be posts about my work, since I'm credited under my Real Name for those and I just am not super fond of the idea of being widely associated with that here. (This of course doesn't mean I'm not proud of my work! I just, I dunno. I don't like being stared at.)

I'm thinking of archiving my fanfic somewhere in addition AO3 just in the interest of...being a good internet user rather than relying on huge centralized sites all the time, but I don't know if I'm going to use a Neocities site or this DW account or what. DW has the advantage that I can sorta post snippets or half-formed things without feeling like I'm clogging the place up, and I have a whole bunch of fragments right now for whatever reason (I'm a slow writer and this is the first time in like a decade I've been in a fandom that actually gets consistent updates, for one, lol). Neocities can be a nice fancy oldschool archive, and I can categorize stuff however I want.

EDIT: When I say "dark sicko shit isn't the only stuff I make or enjoy", I mean I recently almost started crying on-stream because I got so emotional about heroic knights doing good deeds, so it's really kind of a Dr Jekyll and Mr Edgelord situation in my brain, lol.

Title: Barrel of a Gun
Fandom: Final Fantasy XIV
Characters: Livia/Minfilia
Rating: Explicit
Length: ~2.5k
Summary: Livia so rarely loses her temper.
Notes: For an earlier Nonconathon, set during Minfilia's imprisonment at the end of ARR. There's really no way to put this delicately: Livia fucks Minfilia with a gunblade in this one.

( And on top of all that, the woman was damnably stoic. )

Title: Baptism
Fandom: Bloodborne
Characters: Adella/Arianna (noncon), lightly implied (consensual) female hunter/Arianna
Rating: Explicit
Length: ~4.4k words
Summary: Arianna cannot resist doing a good deed, and in Yharnam no good deed goes unpunished.
Notes: For Nonconathon 2019. This is a noncon fic where Arianna is the victim, and it's quite violent and also contains a lot of verbal humiliation and misogynist/slut-shaming insults. Also lots of blood (which has an intoxicating effect because this is Bloodborne), nonconsensual spanking, choking, and a fairly brief description of blood-drawing with a needle.

( She was rail-thin and quiet, but she watched everything like a hawk. In particular, she watched Arianna. )