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Aug. 20th, 2023 09:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ghoulmouseIt's like, hard for me to post off-hand prompt fills or drabbles or what-have-you, even though I used to do it all the time. It just feels so...LAME, you know? Especially drabbles, it's like...this is such a nothingburger of a post, why am I insisting people look at this.
I backed off AO3 in favor of reviving my DW posting in hopes that it would help me break the stalemate I've currently got going with all my thousands of WIPs by encouraging me to write more casually. That is proving way more of a hurdle than I expected.
Look, if I'm going to post it, it's gotta be Perfect. Especially if it's some small fandom or rarepair, like as though the responsibility falls solely on me to produce the Definitive Work in this area, which is a lot of very stupid pressure to put oneself under.
But, I knocked out a couple drabbles and I think it actually helped me make some progress on this summoner Edward AU longfic that has been rattling around in my brain for...I think literally a decade, but abruptly resurfaced due to FFXIV kindly adding a dungeon called "Fell Court of Troia" featuring Scarmiglione. I actually posted a version of part of this...probably over a decade ago at this point. It's gotten significantly more insane in the intervening time, to the extent that I almost HAVE to write it because without the context of the whole AU, talking about any individual idea or plot point or whatever makes me sound like a crazy person.
I literally never let go of ideas, apparently.
I've been so out of the loop on...everything because that cosplay and con rush consumed my life. I'm playing the Crooked Man, though, and really enjoying it. I could honestly play RPGMaker games for the rest of eternity, idk.
I backed off AO3 in favor of reviving my DW posting in hopes that it would help me break the stalemate I've currently got going with all my thousands of WIPs by encouraging me to write more casually. That is proving way more of a hurdle than I expected.
Look, if I'm going to post it, it's gotta be Perfect. Especially if it's some small fandom or rarepair, like as though the responsibility falls solely on me to produce the Definitive Work in this area, which is a lot of very stupid pressure to put oneself under.
But, I knocked out a couple drabbles and I think it actually helped me make some progress on this summoner Edward AU longfic that has been rattling around in my brain for...I think literally a decade, but abruptly resurfaced due to FFXIV kindly adding a dungeon called "Fell Court of Troia" featuring Scarmiglione. I actually posted a version of part of this...probably over a decade ago at this point. It's gotten significantly more insane in the intervening time, to the extent that I almost HAVE to write it because without the context of the whole AU, talking about any individual idea or plot point or whatever makes me sound like a crazy person.
I literally never let go of ideas, apparently.
I've been so out of the loop on...everything because that cosplay and con rush consumed my life. I'm playing the Crooked Man, though, and really enjoying it. I could honestly play RPGMaker games for the rest of eternity, idk.
