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Thinking a lot lately about...I dunno, the old internet.
Returning to DW it's on one hand nice to just post stuff but it's really hard to shake the Social Media obsession with attention that's buried into my subconscious by now. Given that the one time I had something REALLY take off on twitter, like to an absurd degree, it made the site utterly unusable for two months, I don't even know WHY I feel like it's important that a ton of people read, or even WANT to read what I post.
(When I say "to an absurd degree," I mean that an extremely offhand joke I made somehow got more retweets than the dril "blocked, blocked, none of you are free from sin" post. Like somewhere in the high 5 figure range, last I checked, and that's not counting the screenshots of the stupid thing that got circulated on Tumblr and even Facebook to the tune of 100k notes. It had a typo in it. Just IMAGINE my mentions, and by the way at the time muting a post's notifications broke when it hit a certain threshold.)
I want to just kinda, make stuff again. Part of me is afraid I won't ever TALK to anyone again that way, though. And I do like talking to people, directly to people, even though I'm terrifically socially anxious in real life to the extent that it sometimes takes me multiple MONTHS of psyching myself up to go somewhere to talk to people. I do it anyway, sometimes, to the best of my ability, but I'm sadly also not good at keeping up connections.
Ideally, of course, you can have venues for interaction as well as personal spaces where you can just show off things that you create, that are important to you, regardless of who is listening (because it's YOURS first and foremost), but. I am also functionally incapable of regulating my attention and the mechanics of modern social media do not make it any easier.
Anyway, to try out the DW image uploading stuff, here's a picture of some cross stitch I've done. I've been decreasing the scale at which I do these because, I don't know tiny things are cute. On the right is I guess a "normal" cross stitch (16 count aida fabric, I think) of Flowey from Undertale, using a pattern from the Undertale cross stitch book which I highly recommend for beginners, actually. On the left is Edward's SNES/SFC menu portrait, which I just did right from the pixel art, on...I don't remember exactly but you can see that it is very small.
Alt key for general scale. (It's a thumbnail, how oldschool).
(also don't mind all the bunny fur)
I keep making these things but I have no idea what to do with them honestly.
The Flowey thing is actually a pincushion and it has one of the creepy disintegrating Flowey faces on the other side. Edward's menu portrait I just...like a lot, it's one of the only ones with a noticeably non-neutral expression, and I think the strong profile is cute. It doesn't have a purpose, it just sits on my desk cluttering the space up, next to other projects I've done of Alphys (Undertale), the Rowdy Mouse (Earthbound), and uhhh the get out frog (ancient, localized internet meme).
Returning to DW it's on one hand nice to just post stuff but it's really hard to shake the Social Media obsession with attention that's buried into my subconscious by now. Given that the one time I had something REALLY take off on twitter, like to an absurd degree, it made the site utterly unusable for two months, I don't even know WHY I feel like it's important that a ton of people read, or even WANT to read what I post.
(When I say "to an absurd degree," I mean that an extremely offhand joke I made somehow got more retweets than the dril "blocked, blocked, none of you are free from sin" post. Like somewhere in the high 5 figure range, last I checked, and that's not counting the screenshots of the stupid thing that got circulated on Tumblr and even Facebook to the tune of 100k notes. It had a typo in it. Just IMAGINE my mentions, and by the way at the time muting a post's notifications broke when it hit a certain threshold.)
I want to just kinda, make stuff again. Part of me is afraid I won't ever TALK to anyone again that way, though. And I do like talking to people, directly to people, even though I'm terrifically socially anxious in real life to the extent that it sometimes takes me multiple MONTHS of psyching myself up to go somewhere to talk to people. I do it anyway, sometimes, to the best of my ability, but I'm sadly also not good at keeping up connections.
Ideally, of course, you can have venues for interaction as well as personal spaces where you can just show off things that you create, that are important to you, regardless of who is listening (because it's YOURS first and foremost), but. I am also functionally incapable of regulating my attention and the mechanics of modern social media do not make it any easier.
Anyway, to try out the DW image uploading stuff, here's a picture of some cross stitch I've done. I've been decreasing the scale at which I do these because, I don't know tiny things are cute. On the right is I guess a "normal" cross stitch (16 count aida fabric, I think) of Flowey from Undertale, using a pattern from the Undertale cross stitch book which I highly recommend for beginners, actually. On the left is Edward's SNES/SFC menu portrait, which I just did right from the pixel art, on...I don't remember exactly but you can see that it is very small.
Alt key for general scale. (It's a thumbnail, how oldschool).
(also don't mind all the bunny fur)
I keep making these things but I have no idea what to do with them honestly.
The Flowey thing is actually a pincushion and it has one of the creepy disintegrating Flowey faces on the other side. Edward's menu portrait I just...like a lot, it's one of the only ones with a noticeably non-neutral expression, and I think the strong profile is cute. It doesn't have a purpose, it just sits on my desk cluttering the space up, next to other projects I've done of Alphys (Undertale), the Rowdy Mouse (Earthbound), and uhhh the get out frog (ancient, localized internet meme).